Chaos. Yes chaos. That word kept coming up for me today. "I am so busy!" I keep noticing people saying this. I am so busy I can't….. People filled my message box with the list of things that they were doing in a day. I stepped back and for once, decided that instead of getting frustrated or annoyed, I would detach and see what message was being sent to me. It took me all day to realize, but this was exactly how I used to be. Busy, busy, busy. People tend to think that if their days are filled to the brim and they can tell the word they are busy, it looks good. It looks like they are important or have this amazing life. I know, I was one of them. Today I decided to just sit on this and see what came up. I have been spending a lot of time lately just getting in touch with my feelings and figuring out what messages I am being lead to. I know, this might sound all woo woo, but guess what it makes me feel so much more grounded and present. Wasn't I trying to accomplish this for the longest time? Yes, my dear, I think that I have finally gotten the message. The first for today is, just be still. Be present.
I recently met with a relative who was telling me how much travel he and his spouse were doing. Caribbean Islands for the holidays, Mexico for a week, here and then there. My first question I asked him was, do you two ever sit still? He gave me the weirdest look. Do you ever just sit and be? What are you running from? I can have the nerve to say this because I was once a "runner". Let's book an exotic vacation, be happy for a week and then guess what? Your life at home is still the same. Do not get me wrong. I love travel, I crave travel. I also think that travel is one of the best things you can do for your life. See new things, experience new cultures, and sip margaritas at the beach. However, if you are running from something, stay still long enough to address that so you can go out on your adventures with a clear heart, clear mind and know that you will come home to that same feeling.
As I stepped onto my yoga mat this morning, I brought the word chaos with me. Does that sound as strange to you as it did to me? I decided to bring this word because it came up several times before I even got to the studio. So why dear Universe were you bringing me this word to meditate on today? I came to the conclusion that it was officially time to calm down, be still and sit in my own chaos to see where changes need to be made. Another aha moment for my 50.4.50! Take the time to stop and smell the roses. Take the time to spend quality time with your child before he is driving away to college. Take the time to treasure every day. It's a gift that can be taken away at any given moment.
I love the way the Universe works. I love the way that it gently (sometimes more than gently) guides you to see what it is that it wants you to see. They say that the best coaches are the ones that give you the tools to use to help yourself. Today the Universe did just that. I ask you, the reader, where in your life you can skim down the chaos and appreciate that the experience I had today may speak to you on some level? Let's all put down our phones, gaze out the window and take a deep breath! Enjoy the gentle moment and bring that forward into your own lives.
I am so busy doing nothing... that the idea of doing anything - which as you know, always leads to something - cuts into the nothing and then forces me to have to drop everything. - Jerry Seinfeld
Until my next adventure,
P.A. Walker
